Tired

I've given up on feeling perfect	it's a good thing.

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Posted by: bobmattax Original: 6/7/2006 7:37 AM Views: 70 Comments: 15 eProps: 26 Read Comments Post a Comment Back to Your Xanga Site

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Wednesday, June 07, 2006

Ironically, I'm not terribly tired physically, but I am tired in all other senses.

I'm tired of working, and never getting anywhere.
I'm tired of feeling unsuccessful.
I'm tired of being told of all my 'wonderful' character and relational flaws.
I'm tired of relationships requiring so much effort.
I'm tired of knowing what I must do but not doing it.
I'm tired of asking people to listen and just try to understand, and instead I get lectures and advice on how to make it better.
I'm tired of running out of single friends.
I'm tired of feeling so terribly unique that its hard for people to relate to me.
I'm tired of that lonely feeling that comes with it.

I'm refreshed by serving.
I'm refreshed by smiling.
I'm refreshed by laughing.
I'm refreshed by the Lord.
I'm refreshed by sport and competition.
I'm refreshed by sunshine and wind (especially in the form of bike rides)
I'm refreshed by getting to work on all my projects
I'm refreshed by trust and respect

I can't really make all those happen, but I'll do my best at my part.

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i am refreshed by you. and your honesty. and your uniqueness. be comforted that relationships take less effort by many people, by their choice while you make a more deliberate one of time & energy.

looking forward to sharing a piece of summer with you. i know cory is too.

Posted 6/7/2006 8:35 AM by Sevier - reply

Visit recoveringHumanBeing's Xanga Site!

Copycat. Sounds like me and you have a similar outlook on life and our struggles right now. Although, it also sounds like you're trying to have a more positive outlook than me.

Posted 6/7/2006 12:25 PM by recoveringHumanBeing - reply

To continue our xanga-chat, I did indeed hear you have a boat and would be very willing to make the most of it. I need to consult my more manly half to see what's up for the 4th because I would love to be a part of the festivities!

Posted 6/7/2006 5:32 PM by Sevier - reply

I find it comforting that i am not the only one who seems so fed up with where their life has gone, but happy that you keep trying to keep your outlook positive. Just remember, it is only money. Some things are worth way, way more. Keep your head up. And above all, remember that your unique way of doing things is why people gravitate towards you.

Posted 6/8/2006 7:08 AM by Knightedge - reply

Hi. I can definitely relate to many of the things on your list. The tired part about you being unique though, that is what makes you Bob :o) (Whom I remember to be a pretty cool guy) I know this is a lame way to get in contact with you, but if you have some time this weekend it would be nice to meet up with you while I am in Muncie. Withdrawl from no aol conversations and all...that and you have one of my most precious possessions ;o) Let me know what would work for you and have an excellent night!

Posted 6/8/2006 4:16 PM by princessmagenta - reply

You haven't run out of this single friend! I hope you're well. I haven't talked with you in about a lifetime...it saddens me. However, I hope the things that refresh you outweight the things that tire you. :) Be joyous for no reason at all!

Posted 6/8/2006 6:28 PM by Rachini1115 - reply

No, no word on any other job yet - I am still in contention for one, so I am still keeping my fingers crossed. All it really comes down to is that you have to live for you and be who you are. And you are good at that! lol

Posted 6/8/2006 8:40 PM by Knightedge - reply